Love each other or die.

Love each other or die.

I read "Tuesday's with Morrie" yesterday.

It was good, not entirely life changing, but it did change some parts of me.

I give it somewhere between a 7-8/10. Still haven't found the 10/10 book for me.

Umm, I promised I wouldn't go on the internet, but I need to just let out some things, because the pressure is just building up, and I think ,I think (I live in hope) that some people actually still read this.

One thing going on in my life will be illustrated now by a pretend conversation in a scenario where I get to explain to somebody the problem I have with them.

"Dear sir/madam/sentient being,

Do you ever realise that for a majority of the time for all our interactions, the pronouns you use are "I" and "Me"? I hear few of "Us" and "We', or "You". I was close to hating you, but I'm mostly just quite pissed about the way you do things.

You follow rules blindly because you are afraid of striking it out on your own, or thinking for yourself. I understand the need for rules in general to avoid anarchy in our society, but rules can bend a bit.

If people live under an inflexible rule of rules, they will go insane, because people by nature are slightly chaotic, and no amount of rules can ever crush the deviating spirit of the human mind.

Furthermore, I find your body language extremely intimidating in the sense that it is fake, like a bluff. You show off a rough exterior and blackmail us using passive agression, but I bet I know why you stay up late. I wonder how your children think of you and talk to you.

You are unwilling to change, and unwilling to be open to the idea of change, and your EQ level is honestly quite disappointing. I do not regret what I have said. I do not hate you, I would very much like to be your friend, I would prefer that. I think we both would. Unfortunately, you like to take a rough and overused stand of being the "tough one" whom one has to earn respect from in order to gain a relationship.

Unfortunately for both of us, I am like that too. I refuse to respect you because of the underlying message you seem to send to me in every interaction we have, whether it is sunbconscious or not.

Kthxbai."

Okay. I'm done ranting with that.

I found out today that I've lost 1.5kg in body weight not just water and food weight.

Thats nice.

The other thing thats bothering me now is the lack of time I seem to have.

I'm willing to give it everything, but I'm worried that everything isn't good enough.

I'm fighting it everyday. Everyday.

Thats how it starts.

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