Its not that I got scolded, I can kinda understand why anyone at all would find handing up a blank script upsetting.

Its how I got scolded.

I don't mind being scolded for handing up a blank script.

I don't mind that from me handing up a blank script it is inferred that I probably didn't make an effort.

Cause I didn't, thats true no matter what the reason.

But I mind if you say I walk around as though I'm "God's gift to the cohort".

I may have an arrogant face, and stride, but I'm not.

Don't talk about me to me, when you don't know me.

I can understand where you're coming from, but not why. I don't see the justification to tear me down for WHO I AM, even if, and IF in the hypothetical scenario I happen to be arrogant.

I think that you should stick to tearing me down for WHAT I DO or DON'T DO.

Not who I am.

Thats all, you made my already terrible day worse. Thanks.

Thats why I always wonder after a day of interacting with you in that manner- what would you do if you found out tomorrow that I committed suicide. Would you care?

Because honestly I've already considered that non-being relatively better than being especially when it comes to pain and dealing with the world sometimes.

If no one will remember you in 500 years, and you are insignificant in the world now, and people hardly listen to you or your explanations now, why should your absence make a difference?

I find it hard to believe that you can both pray to the same God I pray to, and still show no mercy or sympathy whatsoever.

(perhaps this is retribution for the way I treat other people)

There are only two things I cannot tolerate and that is how and why.

Its never what, or who, or when.

On the upside, some things made my day significantly better.

1. Anjney came up to me and told me her thought that me respecting my own ideals was evidence of my intelligence. That was nice to hear. Thanks man:)

2. Shelley and Ernie:)

3. Singing the birthday song for Adria forced me to smile, Thank you for being born today:)

4. On the way home, I saw a



among a bunch of its coo-ing friends, and I decided that I wanted to observe them cause they looked so happy. I stood still and a man walked past and this brown one (like the one in the photo but....brown, and less of an asshat) kept circling round to get closer and closer to me and stare at me.

Then I smiled back and walked slowly home.

On the way two pigeons were walking towards me and they walked right to avoid me but turned back to look at me, I smiled back. Animals are so much like people sometimes, but more likable.

Then, as I reached my void deck, a police bar pulled up beside me ( was listening to music and couldn't hear them coming, and was walking very slowly), and a cop rolled down the windows



at me, and asked if I had seen an "Indian man wearing a shirt with stripes going downwards", to which I said "uh, no, just walking home slowly, didn't see anyone like that, sorry", and then they drove off.

It was nice to see someone smile, and it was nice to see cops ( I thought I was in trouble, no idea why, but cops do that to me ) smiling.

Then I went home and drank herbal soup (Thanks dad)

So, today was overall..okay I guess.

Ruined by the irrelevant part of the scolding, but balanced out by my friends, a pigeon, and an indian man on the run.

The things that make me happy can be so simple.

So, if you guys ever do read my blog, just answer some stuff in the tagboard k:

1. When cops are around, approach you, or talk to you, do you suddenly feel afraid, like you're doing something illegal, even if you aren't?

2. Name three things that don't cost anything that make you happy.

3. Vote, if I should smile more or not, and if you ahve any tips on how to smile more, lemme know. thanks:)

You don't have to answer them all, just the ones you want to.

I think I'm gonna stick with this skin for a while, I like it. If you see any others like it, lemme know.

:)

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